Meh — Surrender

The mehs keep me down day after day.

I want to, but I don’t.

WHY?

Why do I don’t

Don’t do what I want

Want to write

Write my story

Story of hardship

Hardship of relationships

Relationships that brainwashed

Brainwashed and molded

Molded me and made me

Me myself and I

I am anxious

Anxious to belong

Belong unconditionally

Unconditionally accepted

Accepted, warts and all

All of me.

Why?

Insecurity is the answer. Afraid to lose, afraid to win? (I never understood the concept of being afraid to succeed.)

I could have been a terrific piano player, but I never practiced or stuck it out? Why?

Why ask why?

Meh!

@Ruth